i’ve been stuck in a post-vacation rut all week. my heart has been miserable, aching. i can not even define what it is that has plagued me to the point of sorrow. i’ve literally been grieving all week long. i don’t think people at work could tell- i do like my job, and i enjoyed being there. but when i got home, i mourned. i layed around on the couch a lot, watched a lot of gilmore girls (because going…
there is an ASM position open for my store- but i am not allowed to apply for it. oh well. i’m fine with this. the higher ups say i have to grow more and work more on my development plan. i’m cool with that. most likely i will be transferred after christmas. i’m glad i have the stability of at least knowing what the next few months hold for me. plus, i love the MOA at christmas. i love starbucks…
it’s cold. i hate it. HATE it. this is the last you will hear me complain for the rest of this awful time of life- for the next AT LEAST 7 months you will not hear me utter these words aloud again. just know that i am miserable every waking moment of every murderous degree below 70. (and even that’s pushin’ it.) i am so angry about the cold it’s hard to control the tears. alas, i am done complaining….
ok. for real. i am at the OBX (in NC). i am ON the beach. it’s in the late 70’s…and it’s evening. i have my own room, with my own bathroom attached. there is a porch swing right outside my window. there is a pool, again, on the beach. as well as a hot tub. there is a game room, with a flat screen tv. there are several fridges, several washer and dryers. several decks. several bed rooms, and bathrooms,…
it’s in my blood. i have to write about Roots. i am a bit discouraged, though, because i keep asking people if they’ve heard of “Roots” and i have gotten, “the band?”, “what are you talking about?”, “what’s that about?” no people! like i said, it’s in my blood to spread the word about this thing called, “Roots”. it’s actually originally a book- written by a man named Alex Haley. it was then turned into a made-for-tv-movie series that was…
AH HA!! finally! revenge is MINE. i haven’t done laundry since my parents left (if you don’t know how long that is, i am not saying…it’s way too long, and way too gross!). i finally got home today after a long week of work (praise the Lord i got overtime hours! bad for my manager- good for my wallet!). i separated all my clothes while chatting with one of my favorite friends in the world! i love multi-tasking! i decided…
i can’t get my thoughts in gear. i’ve started to blog about 3 times now, and ended up deleting the posts. i don’t know what my deal is. there are many things swimming through my thoughts, soul, and heart. i think what it comes down to is i’ve been reserving my heart for one of my journals lately. i guess i am going through a more private journey right now. no offense to faithful readers- i love you all. 🙂…
i don’t know when it happened- but it’s one of the best things that has ever happened to me. somewhere during the past little while (quite vague, i know!) God has been teaching my heart to live FOR today, live IN today, and LOVE today. that means gone are the days i am living for what’s next. gone are the days i am living for the future. gone are the days i am living for what i thought my life…
i’ve reached new heights today. i’m quite proud of myself, actually. i am sitting here on a rainy, cold, dreary sunday in my sweats and a long sleeve t-shirt. still freezing to death, i thought to myself, “i want a cup of coffee”. and there it is folks. just me- all by myself wanting my own cup of coffee. i can hear it brewing in my little kitchen, and it makes me feel so cozy and warm already just listening…
i can’t sleep. my skin is crawling. i itch everywhere. i feel tingly sensations all over my body. even my own shadow makes me jump. it all started about 2 weeks ago. one morning, around 6 freaking a.m., i went out to my little garage- which i use to protect me from villans, mind you- and there in the corner was this huge, and i mean huge- spider. i think it’s safe to call him a tarantula. i freaked. there…
